I always dreaded those doctor calls, where they say they’ll call you if anything comes up. A few months ago, I went in for my yearly physical. Being a woman, of course that includes a pap and cervical cancer screening as well.
I am just now getting a call from the doctor regarding everything and turns out that in the cancer screen they found a-typical cells, meaning abnormal and I need to get them checked ASAP again because they are unsure.
Hearing this over the phone in a different province from your family and friends is a little heart aching. I have always wondered what I would do if this situation has ever come up and now that it’s happening, i’m completely lost and very… too be honest.. Scared.
I didn’t know what to say at first, I didn’t know what to think or do. My family has a history of cancer and I don’t want it. Obviously.
I think what I’m feeling right now is confused. I’m a little nervous to go get checked again because I don’t want to find out anymore bad news, i’ve even considered not going to the doctor again.
I think that this is a natural human instinct, or just mine.. too run or stray when things get a little rough. I have done my best to be strong about this but I really feel like breaking down.
I have so much on my mind about life and my love and to add this to the mix is sort of inconvenient. I can only think positive but yet my mind won’t stop thinking about the negative. I hope that I can get through this.
I am concerned about my mother. She is the most worried and most upset. I hope that she will get through this and that she will be able to be there for me, which I know she will, I just don’t like seeing her hurt. She is strong, and I hope I can be as strong as her.
Anyways, I needed to get that off my chest.
Always, the lovely t.
I cried for you and hope it turns out the best possible way.
Saying stay strong and positive is like asking you to fly. Yet, it’s what I want to say so I included it.
Wish I could help but know I care, for whatever that is worth.
My thoughts are with you.
Also, I liked this in support of you! Not liked the news or what you are going through.
You are a sweet heart and I appreciate this so much! Thank you for all your support. I hope everything works out and I hope that I will get through this. Thank you again and again!!
i was going to like this in support too and then felt bad as didn’t want you to think I”d like the diagnosis. I have had abnormal cells before too and they passed over time which I think happens often. Just focus on that if you can. I know it’s hard. Thinking of you